The Five of Pentacles

 The first tarot card I pulled for myself. Could not be more perfect for me currently...

I tend to be independent but right I have relied deeply on a few friends for support through all of this. I need to keep doing so. We need each other to continue and like the crutch there is support out there for me.

I live in an area of the country where I am always wearing a plague bell. I do not fit, I am an outcast from religion, politics, social justice etc where I live. I walked through my community with that plague bell.

Helping others is the only way through.

This card also matched my soul. I find peace in darkness, in snow...